Grrr! Time to Vent.

Doesn't anyone ever get tired of partying? Doesn't anyone ever notice that most people (roughly ages 15 and onward) do the same exact thing every weekend? My life has been fairly regimented since the beginning of high school. It goes as follows: work during the week and then get drunk on the weekend. But not just drunk, totally smashed would be the more accurate description. And it never seems to get old. I've personally been sick of this routine since the middle of high school, yet the drive to party continues to hold strong in most college students. And there's truly no escaping it. I can say from experience that all of my friends still love to get "absolutely twisted" (as one of them would say), which traps me into this unhealthy pattern as well. The only alternative to this lifestyle becomes, sadly, staying in by yourself. Which, according to the invisible yet almighty social laws set forth by my peers, is considered sheer blasphemy. Choosing sobriety, sadly, now has the potential to kill your social life. Even if you manage to find friends who share the same desire to avoid substances, even for just one weekend, then your sex life too may dwindle. Unless you're in some sort of relationship, there aren't many opportunities to hook-up whilst sober. And I'm not saying I don't enjoy getting drunk or the random hook-up; I frequently partake in both activities. I just want to live a life of moderation so I don't lose all my creativity or personality.

Well, I'm not feeling particularly creative at the moment.

I'm sitting here, in Blogging class, trying to post my first blog. Seems like a lot of pressure. What could I possibly post that would interest anyone? It must be something catchy, yet wholly original. What a conundrum. What hasn't already been said? Should I talk about life? Should I post something uplifting and motivational, so that the next person who reads this feels great about himself? Everyone around me seems to be doing something productive. None of them are looking up from their screens. Shit, I'm falling behind. STILL NOTHING, GOD. Well, I guess I've noticed that creativity cannot be forced. I'm forcing myself to write and getting nowhere. But if creativity has to come naturally, how does one jumpstart that primary sensation of inspiration? Where does that really come from? A hot shower? A good night's sleep? A well balanced diet? Good sex? Occasional substance abuse? Regular substance abuse?